I'm an insomniac. What's it to you?

I have trouble sleeping. No secret there. Ever since my teens, sleeping has never been something that I've been very good at. I'll stay up until 1 or 2 in the morning, fall asleep about an hour or two later, then run through my snooze button a few dozen times. Then the cycle continues. So when I have a day off, be it weekend, hooky, or holiday I will inadvertently fall asleep on the couch in the middle of something inane I've recorded (A recent Justice League episode this afternoon). And yet as little sleep as I get normally, a feeling of guilt creeps over me. "It's a beautiful day outside", the little voice says, "and you WASTED 2 HOURS of it asleep?"

Naps are a wonderful thing. I get that. But I never seem to allow myself the luxury of enjoying it. Perhaps awake time is such the norm that internally it's a waste of time to spend any time asleep. Maybe not. I have an Rx for Ambien for when it gets too bad, and I don't seem to mind sleeping 7 hours in a row. But once, just once, I'd love to take a nap on a Sunday afternoon and enjoy the hell outta it.

Epic Mount! YAY!

Chacha and I just got our Epic Mounts. YIPPEE! For those of you that don't play World of Warcraft, that's a BIG deal. For those of you that do, you know the reason for the excitement.

Honestly, I could've waited. It wasn't as big a deal for me. But now that Chacha and I are questing a lot together in the OL, it made sense for us to get it at the same time. That way I can keep up with her, which trust me is a big chore.

But now we're poor. And I mean trailer-trash old-nightsaber-on-cinderblocks poor. Back to grinding, I suppose.

Choosing a business name bites

I'm working on getting my own business started. I feel that I'm tired of making money for someone else. I want to help people. I came up with a way that I can enjoy what I do, be my own boss, make a difference in people's lives, and have fun while doing it. Plus, what I'm planning on doing will be something I can do in addition to my current job.

ChaCha (that's what I decided to call my Not-Girlfriend) and I were working on business names. It's interesting that the name isn't as important as the domain availability. Back in the day, all you really had to do was pick a name, register it with the state, and you're on your way. But now, we had to scrap several names simply because the domain name wasn't available. Has the internet become that important? Obviously it has. What sucks even more is that most of these domains aren't even used, and I'm not paying thousands of dollars to these brokers for the one I want.


Anyway, I think we decided on one. I won't mention it yet until I get the ok from Texas, but we really like it and we also like the acronym as well. Keeping my fingers crossed.

I believe

To explain a little about who I am, here is an essay I wrote a while back. A little history behind this: I got into a religious debate with a coworker, which was dangerous since I'm an agnostic. I was trying to explain that it was faith I had a problem with. He then made a comment that I don't believe in anything, since I can't believe in [his] God. That burrowed into my skull. I went back to my office and pounded this out. I think it describes me better than any other description could.


I BELIEVE...

I believe in Love at first sight, the power within us all, the love of a dog, our ability to change the world, random acts of kindness, the joy of cuddling, and making someone else happy before myself. I believe that pirates are cool, robots are not, what happens at a bachelor party stays there, that exercise makes you feel good, ducks are hilarious and a good BBQ place is worth its weight in gold. I believe in being silly for no reason, Liberty as being more important than security, talking to the person behind you in line at the store, making out without sex, the beauty of nature, creativity, and fighting for something I feel strongly about.

I believe that people connected can have conversations without saying a word, we can all have the joy and wonder of a child, respect for one another, the connection between strangers, honesty and integrity, creative solutions, and enthusiasm for everything. I believe in dirty jokes, clean sheets, patience, intuition, the healing power of a cheesecake, loving what you do, and doing what you love. I believe in the magic of a family dinner, holding the door open for a lady, tickling, snuggling under a blanket, picnics, skinny dipping and playing catch. I believe that oral sex is fun, violence is never an answer, life is too short, listening is more important than speaking, and that people are inherently good.

I believe in being proud of myself, giving a gift for no reason, dancing for no reason, singing with the radio, jumping in with both feet, back rubs, inside jokes and secret crushes. I believe money is unimportant, No dog is mean unless taught to be, someone loves me, and tomorrow will be a better day. I believe in learning something every day, remembering good times, learning from mistakes, remembering past loves, hugging your mom, stopping to smell the flowers, and the power of a good nap. I believe in family, friends, diner coffee, good beer, bad movies, breakfast at 2am, french kisses, long hugs, moonlight walks and irrational fears.

I believe that the best things in life aren't things, the journey is more important than the destination, there are no negative emotions, and when people make fun of you, you’re on the right track. I believe in a voice being heard, enjoying life, goals, local sports, good sushi, greasy spoons and dirty little secrets. I believe in listening to my inner child, walking a little old lady across the street, not being intimidated by things I don't know, taking your vacation, and not taking things personally. I believe that you’re never too old to have a birthday party, being weird means never being bored, getting away is wonderful therapy, the word “weasel” is funny, and women named "B.J." should be sued for false advertising.

I believe in knowing your heritage and history, rocking the boat, living with passion, not worrying, helping those in need, learning something new and the power of words. I believe that one imaginary friend is wonderful, 20 is a reason to worry, being scared is fun, the government lies to us, persistence will be rewarded, you should read the funnies first, and slapping anyone that wears socks with sandals. I believe in learning a new language, whispering nothings, selfless acts, the beauty of a tree, black and white movies, Saturday morning cartoons, loving oneself, and the joy of a good book.

I believe in being part of a community, forgiving others, inviting friends over for no reason, the connection between two lovers, a game of cards, and Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. I believe that this too shall pass, when you give something away, let it go, peoples’ children are not all geniuses, There’s no such thing as too spicy or too good, and nobody cares if you can’t dance or sing. I believe in being extraordinary, no regrets, the kindness of strangers, doggie kisses, spooning, being yourself, asking questions, and bringing donuts if you’re late for work. I believe in giving of yourself to others, tackling challenges, working hard, playing hard, saying “thank you,” and good conversation.

I believe that education and intelligence aren’t the same thing, farts are funny, beauty comes from within, Love is all anyone really needs, there's no such thing as too many kisses, and It's never too late to have a happy childhood. I believe in trust, unconditional Love, wearing your favorite color just because it makes you feel good, a perfect martini, lying in the grass and finding shapes in the clouds, and smiling for the hell of it. I believe one good hug can change a bad day, there's nothing worse than cold coffee or warm milk, whenever you feel afraid get a new box of crayons, it's okay to cry during sad movies, and never sleep alone when you can sleep in someone's arms.

I believe in Wearing silly hats, greeting your love at the door, not pretending to be something you're not, being happy for no reason, adopting pets instead of buying, knowing all the possibilities of your impossible dream, and being an angel for a friend. I believe puppies have the power to soften the hardest heart, No matter how good you are you can still get better, good times are even better when they're shared, laughter makes the world a better place, and miracles happen.

I believe the world is an amazing place, everyone needs a blankie now and then, I am not alone, Mom will always love you, things will look better if you wait, and there is always something good to look forward to. I believe that if sex isn't dirty, you're doing it wrong, It's okay if you need a little tech support now and then, I'm not as smart as I think I am, and as long as I continue to love, I will always be loved.

Welcome!

Ok, so I finally broke down and decided to start a blog. Too many people have told me that my opinions are worth something, so here I am.

A little about me. I'm a 35 year-old guy from Austin, TX working as a target for management hostility. I am addicted to caffeine, nicotine, World of Warcraft and cartoons. I'm (somewhat) recently divorced, a liberal, and destined for immorality.

Don't expect the same stuff every day. I get distracted easily, so I may post 5 essays at once, or I may let a week go by without posting a thing. I welcome feedback, and please don't be offended if I take some time to reply. Have fun, and LIVE WITH PASSION!

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